The eyes of the LORD are in every place,
beholding the evil and the good.
Proverbs 15:3The past forty-eight hours have been crazy....overwhelmingly so. Our flight home was not only delayed but rough. We had a two hour drive home from the airport, through the tail end of tropical storm Nicole and didn't end up arriving at our front door until 4am Friday morning. There is no place like home! As I'm sure all the moms know, when vacation ends, our workload increases. I don't know that Mom ever really gets a vacation. So, after a couple of hours of sleep on Friday, my feet hit the ground running - bills to pay, a bank to get to, groceries to buy, laundry to do. Maybe unlike most moms out there, I struggle at times with something. It's an ugly little something that goes something like this. While I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off, other close relations are sleeping in, watching tv, reading books, surfing the net or just plain lounging around. This ugly little sin reared it's head up this morning. Yesterday was a whirlwind and by 10pm, I was ready for bed. Of course, that would be the time that our youngest was having a GI flare-up. As I sat up with her, I could feel myself getting angry and having a pity party...."why am I the only one that ever loses sleep with her?" Why Lord? You know, God's Word has an answer for everything! I began to read my Bible as I waited for little one to fall asleep and came across this verse:
Where no oxen are, the crib is clean:
but much increase is by the strength of the ox.
Is God likening our children to oxen? I believe the application can most assuredly be made! My "crib" (home) would be nice and clean if it were not for our "oxen" (children) but OH! the blessings I'd miss! I'd sure, I could be peacefully sleeping in my bed were it not for our children but would the trade really be worth it? Absolutely not!
I did finally get to bed only to be awoken by a dog needing to go outside. There's that little sin popping up again.....WHY must *I* be the only one that can get up and take care of kids, cats, dogs, etc? Really? And so the morning went. As I was grumbling my way through laundry, while others slept in, the Lord again began to speak to me about my SELFISHNESS. Yes, that little, ugly sin is nothing but selfishness. Any time your or I feel like our needs should come first, it's selfish!
Jesus Christ in our example for all things and we can surely look at the life of Christ and see how selfless he was. Jesus always ministered to others first and put himself last, even to the point of His death. And it was during this discourse with the Lord that I heard His voice saying,
"I SEE YOU"
Does that mean anything to you? It does to me! The Lord sees me! He sees me when I'm tired and he sees me when I'm weak. He knows!
For he knoweth our frame;
he remembereth that we are dust.
I believe that our selfish, "me first" attitude comes in when we begin to think that we are servants to our family. Yes, we are to 'serve' but I think you understand the mentality of "who do they think I am? the maid?" We aren't serving them at all; we serve the Lord!!! And He sees our service. When I stay up late to care for a sick child, I should be doing it unto the Lord! When I get up early to catch up on housework, I am doing it unto the Lord! If only I could remember that at all times, it would certainly cure the "poor me" attitude that I seem to catch myself having now and then.
"Fair" is not going to happen - not in life, not in the home, not at work. If we expect fairness and equality in our workload, we will be most miserable. The only way to find happiness is to fully surrender to the Lord Jesus, cast our cares upon Him and rest in knowing that He sees every step we take and He cares!
May I encourage you today to keep pressing on for God's glory! One day when we look upon the face of the Lord Jesus Christ, all of life's struggles will seem so insignificant.
For our light affliction, which is but for a moment,
worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;
2 Corinthians 4:17
It will be worth it all, when we see Jesus!