It's been nearly four years since Missey passed away. Four years since one family's life was changed forever and an entire community of friends and acquaintances mourned. Missey died during what should have been a routine c-section. I often wonder how her family is doing these days. If someone is in contact with Tom, please tell him that he and his children are still very much prayed for and loved.
With the news that we are expecting #4, also came the fear of the unknown. Missey's death changed my view of pregnancy and birth, of life, forever. I battle fear - fear of another c-section, fear of a vbac. Fear. But God isn't the author of fear, the devil is.
There is a lovely lady who writes at Homeschooling from the Heart. Nearly four years ago, she commented on Missey's passing with a gentle reminder that the grace God gives for this trial belongs to Missey's family, not to all who were touched by her life and subsequent death. She goes on to remind us that we can rest assured that if the unthinkable were to happen in our lives, God's grace would be available to us, as His children, as well.
I love this quote by Patty: In your living life to the fullest -- go ahead. Life is sweet -- family is beautiful. God invented that. In holding loosely, simply go to Him. Ask Him to help you, come what may. And expect that things will likely just move along -- but also expect that if they do not stay status quo, HIS GRACE WILL BE THERE.
You can read the post in its entirety HERE
GRACE: Five little letters that mean so much. Grace....
ETA: Just a couple of hours after this entry, I began to miscarry our fourth child. Never, in a million years did I expect that. You know what? God's grace was there, waiting for me....
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